Ah! I just love moments like this... I feel so down! So f***ing down, that I don't care about what stupid things I gonna say or do! Now I could even storm down at enemy trenches, under heavy fire, holding only god damn pistol clip, and have orgasm because of it! HELL YEAH!

Anyway, for sake of idea of journal, I will write what is happening with me lately. So, its boring like hell (even our RPG meetings are dying slowly), I feel totally lonely (yet still looking for second half), collage is pushing me hard, and I think I'm sick (I hope its not this swine shit). In other words, if I won't write anything around 9th December, expect that I'm DEAD! BUAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Now let's get back to the stupidity I gonna tell you - to horribly f***ed up deviation called MACROPHILIA. I must be insane that I'm telling about one of my biggest secret in public, don't I? Well, f*** this! I just wanna let you know, its my best thing I have, and I love it. Only because of this sickness I'm still able to somehow manage keeping myself alive, and its formed most of my personality. Of course I can admit here I don't seek much sexual satisfaction, but fun, but you will see it as one big heresy anyway!

So for the end I shall spare with you few thoughts of mine:
1. To stay normal in today world, you must be pretty f***ed up.
2. Even if you think you are totally f***ed up, you still can find some diamond.
3. Many psychologists say than every human have some kind of sexual deviation; so din't call me fag, because I think you are also hiding someting...

So enjoy your Italian Day of the Black Cat, and leave alone, to let me find out what the f*** I did...